Dick Free Diet.

I heard this phrase today- I already forget where but the light bulb went off in my head and decided I wanted to make a blog post recoop from the weekend of work and chat about my personal “dick free diet” What is a dick free diet to me? Obviously no dick but also more…

Friday Morning 

I wake up at 745… cuddle Potato she meows and wiggles around. I fall back asleep. I wake again at 830 cuddle Potato. She rubs against my cheek. We fall back asleep. 1030. I’m up.  Restless mornings- stressful nights. 

Pretty Kitty.

I woke up yesterday to the most beautiful day. Bright sun and warm weather. Something in me decided today I want to adopt a cat. I want to care and provide for something other than myself. Ive been getting lonely lately and think this is a good decision. I want an older cat- no kitties-…

Dallas- 50 Shades Of Fantasy.

We talked on the phone tonight. He was my old Dallas man. He kept telling me how he cared for me- at one point he slipped and said he loved me- than said he cared for me deeply. As soon as he said love my skin crawled with fear and anxiety. When he was saying…

I Mean Think About It.

Human interaction. Manners. Decency. Service industry. Last Friday night at work I had three suburban mothers sitting at a high top during happy hour. It was only me and one other server on at this time and we were slammed. I forgot to ring in happy hour pricing on one of the many apps they…

Fear

My biggest fear. My ultimate set back. My biggest fear is failure. Now I know everyone’s afraid of failure. Duh. My fear though… Mine is my ultimate set back. Even my blog posts. I’ve trashed over 20 posts… Ive published 14. This fear is something that ive began to recognize as a weight on my…

Dallas. Right now. 

Dallas has become a hard topic. He’s become confusing to me and I’ve found myself disinterested. After we fought and ended whatever relationship we had I thought that was it. Done deal. But of course I drunk texted him. Because I’m not me if I drink too much woodford and drunk text everyone I’ve ever…

Valentines Day.

I am happy. I am alone. I do not feel lonely. I am content. I am confident. I am proud. I am in love with myself.

Ashamed.

This is not something I enjoy talking about. Nor is it something I am proud of. I’ve written enough about sugar daddy experiences at this point to make this post. Over all I would never ever suggest any girl pursue a sugar daddy or look for one on the internet. Its one of the top…

Dallas Pt.3 The Final Trip

The last adventure. I struggled packing… I struggled leaving… I struggled traveling. At this time I was dating the boy and I was confusing his companionship for true feelings. I felt guilty leaving him to go see my other boyfriend and he had no idea. He also drove me… That was his offering, not my…

Diary No.5

Betrayal. My mother; my wicked mother. Shes betrayed me more times than I can keep track of over the years. She is a selfish women and she always has been. Its upsetting. When her husband harassed me and abused me she was  be found. She recently stole money from me. My insurance used to be…

Diary No.4

February. I want to try my best to write a diary post every day for the rest of this month. I’ve been in bed all day today… I was in bed all day yesterday too. Besides work I don’t have much to do. There isn’t much I want to do. I’ve been watching a show…